Confused

You said I love you million times, but you lied,
Gave every drop of my love, so hard I had tried.
I admit I went wrong many a times though,
But why at the crossroads did you have to go?

Baby, why the hell didn't you leave me before,
Fucking kicked me out like a dog at the door.
Myself in confusion and my mind in a daze,
Should I hate you or love you, All is a haze.

I think I better hate you, cuz thats what u did.
Fell in pleasurable company,like a 10 year old kid.
Compared me to your friends, looks and deeds.
Substituted them for love to satisfy your needs.

I am so hell confused, is my thinking true??
You tore me like paper,we were to stick like glue.
But I have the trinity: the divine,the pen and the pain.
I will strike in your life,for good or for bad,again and again...